how do I speak in such a way that it tugs at your hearts strings,

that my words shake every bone in your body, that it regenerates a new way of thinking?

How do I talk innocence while screaming distaste. how do I fuel the fire within you and ignite you on fire?

to feel  - to be real - to speak - to love - to reach

what must I do for you to hear my dire cry echo through the mountains and dance upon the raging waves. 

You, are limit-less, yet you are vain.

your self indulgence eat the words that flow from my heart and your vanity rips them. 

---this isn’t about you, but I only write for you. ---

how do I scream into you. hypocrite. 

to be someone who speaks love, but turns in self vanity. 

I wanted you to love me. I wanted every piece of you, till you swallowed me whole. till you drown me in your own tainting ways. 

you don’t see it

you are blind to all that you are and all that you are becoming

this isn’t about you

but everything is for you

everything is about you

it always will be about you

how do I preach love into your life.

how do I break you down far enough for you to see your cracked bones

for you to see a weathered heart

for you to see your venom veins. 

for you to see the distaste that flows from your mouth

for you to feel broken enough to share, to feel, anything

for you to see past your own mask and find yourself

how do i.

how do i.

this isn't about you anymore. I wrote for you and only you. I still write out of brokeness for you.

I hurt for you. 

I no longer long for you, but I break for you.